Thursday, August 4, 2011

The Lost Gift

I kept thinking
I’m fucking
My dead baby’s
Soul.

I had its blood
On my fingers, dick
And mouth.

I have never been so turned on…

Scared shitless.
Also.

I felt so
Unprepared to be a father.
The time was not right.
I,
We
Didn’t feel right
Which is why
The baby had to be
Flushed away.

We could not bring a life
Into this pathetic
World,
But there will be more
opportunities.

There will be a chance
For me
To become a
Father.

I hope one day
I’m ready.
I hope one day
I can be mature enough
To handle
This wonderful
Gift.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

The Will Of The Shitless Queens

Be weary
of a woman who never
shits.

The miracle of her freshness,
cleanliness
is an omen.

She is saving
every bit of excrement.
Years and years
piling up
in her soul.

The day she unleashes
you will say,
I love you
for the thousandth time,
only you'll truly mean it.

You will be
her slave.
You could kill for her,
bleed for her,
die for her.

She will smile,
rip out your heart
and shit on its remains.

The true smell of her love exposed,
suffocating you nostrils,
capturing
the last breath of life.

Her mission complete.

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Lost Within the Kingdom of Fools

He knew he was wrong,
but he cut her
wide open.

He wanted to get
inside her,
smell her,
feel her,
see her true self,
bare and fully
exposed.

No longer
hidden
behind makeup,
perfume,
or clothes.

Her ugly secrets,
unearthed
from her soft flesh.

Just what he wanted.

Or was it?

With his sensitive soul,
weakened heart,
judging eyes,
and unfiltered mouth,
he was
unprepared.

He didn't want to cut
and gouge
so deep,
but curiosity drove him
inside her.

The point of absolutely
no
return.

Now...

He is forever
sown within her flesh,
forever reaching out
for a false freedom
he once held
so dearly.

All is lost
for the king of fools.

He has only
himself to blame.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Article On Appetite Local Hip Hop Producer

Let’s face it, the music industry today sucks piss. It’s nothing, but a decaying factory pumping out one polished turd after another. Our generation is partly to blame. We don’t want to pay for music anymore and we’ve grown accustomed to the awful sounds that flood the radio. We may even, at times, like the manure the record companies are pouring down our ears. However, those seeking authentic music shouldn’t completely lose faith. There is hope. Local talent, Appetite, is committed toward eradicating soulless pop music and producing authentic Hip Hop with a message. He is our savior.

Raised in the slums of Shoalin, Josh Mangiardi aka Appetite was encouraged by his mother to be creative. Growing up in a hippie household gave him an abundance of freedom, but not an abundance of money. He’s had to struggle and deal with frustrations on a day to day basis, which is why Punk music was so appealing to him as a youth. He related to The Misfits and Dead Kennedys’ Jello Biafra. The fuck you, I don’t give a fuck about what you think attitude is permanently cemented in his mind. He carries his rebellious mentality everywhere he goes. He brought it with him when his family moved to the west coast. Between the waves and the dunes and the angst, he discovered Hip Hop. Real Hip Hop. Cypress Hill to be exact and with a few hits from the bong, a soon to be psychedelic Hip Hop producer was spawned.

At the age of sixteen, his “step brother” Picasso, from Living Legends, showed him how to program a simple beat on a drum machine and after that he said, “the rest of my life was over.” He didn’t party. He didn’t have a normal social life. He was utterly committed to be the best. He locked himself in his room and taught himself everything there was to know about producing. Eleven years later, he is still after it. No queef sucking boss or unpaid bills or anything the “system” throws at him, can stop him from producing. He stated, “Nothing is more interesting to me than making music.” He can transcend above all the negativity, even above his own ego.

His hard work and devotion has paid off. His beats are an “elevation of the traditional style of Hip Hop.” The illest I’ve heard in too fucking long. Probably because he samples rare psychedelic prog rock records from the 70s. He chops them up, slows them down, and arranges them to perfection. What he creates is a dark and moody and strange and funky Hip Hop track that incorporates vocal samples and different time signatures. It’s fucking madness. They are obscure, intricate, complex underground gems that any artist like Elzhi or Immortal Technique would love to get their hands on. If only…

He has worked with various artists such as Army of Pharaohs, medafORACLE, and local act Public Defendaz. He refuses to work with the flavor of the month. He only wants to work with artists that have “their own message, style, and sound.” Straight raw, grimey, underground Hip Hop acts. He doesn’t care if you like his style or not. He maintains his punk attitude. He doesn’t make music for the ignorant masses. He makes music for himself. He will keep making it for true b-boys and b-girls until the mortician takes his final measurements. In the meantime, be sure to turn off your radios, scrape all of that nasty shit out of your ears, and regain your appetite for authentic music.

Listen to his mixtape “In My Mind’s Eye” @ http://hulkshare.com/qng2jdv5ptfj

Artists can contact Appetite @ g.vergoglini@gmail.com

Saturday, June 11, 2011

He's the Last Person You Should Call

I sat there in the car
Looking at the dead
Sleeping beneath the earth,
Hidden away
From the burdens of life.

I wished I was at peace
With them, but
I could not get away,
I was right there
With the suffering,
With the lost,
And then,
He spoke, as usual, too much,
He told me about his friend, Antman,
About the days before his suicide.

Ant was down in his own hell,
Drowning himself in alcohol,
Trying to fend off the flames of madness,
But there was no escaping,
So he decided to face his worst fears,
Head on.

He grabbed a shovel
And stumbled to the graveyard
To dig up his son.

He had to hold him
In his arms
Once more.

He thought
It might ease
His own suffering.

He never got to find out,
The cops showed up
When his shovel hit the coffin
And took him away.

Upon release, he hit the bottle,
Hard,
But it was useless,
The flames soared.

He gave up.

He found a tree
Instead,
He also had a rope,
Which he made into a noose.
The gateway to his son
Was open…

He spoke, again,
Antman made one last call to me.
I don’t know why,
Maybe for help,
Maybe to say goodbye,
I will never know,
I let the phone grow silent.

It’s unbelievable
He can still live with himself.

He was never there
for him
or his friends,
or his family,
Especially for the person
We visited on that cold day
And when you need him most,
He will not be there
For you.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

The Fantasy Drifter

There he goes
drifting off
wandering
into his own twisted thoughts.

There he goes
hiding
trying to get lost
in oblivion.

There he goes
planning
planting the seeds
of his own demise.

There he stays
sewn
inside his own
demented mind.

There he knows
no escape,
but he'll pretend
as if his footsteps
were imprinted
somewhere else,
anywhere else,
besides where his mind
wills him
to go.

There he goes,
again,
the fantasy drifter.

Monday, May 9, 2011

The Degenerate Hero Blues

I woke up to a pissed bed.
I got up half-soaked and stubbed my toe,
I think it’s broken.
I began to put on my underwear, shirt, pants, and socks,
I realized they all had bleach stains.
I left them on and went to the kitchen,
Poured myself a bowl of cereal,
A roach fell out of the box.
I picked it out and poured some milk,
It was sour.
I threw it all away including my clothes and went take my morning shit,
When I was done the toilet didn’t flush.
Then, I heard the phone ring,
So I left my bowels and answered,
It was my boss,
Don’t bother coming in to work today,
He said,
We caught you masterbating on the job.
We’ll mail you your final check.

He hung up before I could yell
FUCK YOU!
I went back to try and fix the toilet,
When I heard the phone ring again.
Hello?
It was my girlfriend.
It’s over,
She said.
She’s running off with my cousin
And yes,
He’s got a bigger cock.
I threw the phone against the wall and went back to the bathroom.
A few minutes later
A small victory occurred,
The toilet flushed,
The shit was gone,
Out of my sight
Just like my breakfast, my clothes, my woman,
And my job.
I celebrated,
Cracked open a beer,
Put on some Turbonegro
And waited for more bad luck
To creep toward my door.

Saturday, April 30, 2011

I Will Become the Worm

My belly is full
of shit,
still I keep on piling
more and more
fast food,
liquor,
and other shit
on top of the shit
suffocating my belly.

My tits have grown,
they want to drag themselves
on the floor
with my feet.
My waist line has exploded,
no clothes dare
to try and stretch themselves
around it.
My belly button has vanished,
there's nothing left,
but a black hole
sinking
deeper into my core.

I wish I was there too,
hiding myself away
from the ever growing ugliness,
away from everything,
eating my own lint
and belly hair,
turning into a pathetic pale worm
that loses itself in a perfectly new flesh cave.

My new home.

That would be nice
and easy
and pleasant
and most importantly
simple,
the only way
life should be live.

One day
I will have such peace.

Everyone of you will.

I will become the worm.

Monday, April 25, 2011

The Blasphemous Pussy

There's a church across the street
and every sunday
damned souls come to pray
for their sins
and during the week
AA meetings are held,
those helpless drunks need to pray
for their sobriety.

My eyes
peering through the blinds
watch them come,
watch them go,
completely bored
and saved.

My mouth
opening for a moment,
says they are all fucked,
says they need a wake up call.

Here he comes...

He's big, black, hairy,
and nutless.
He roams the streets
without a care
and makes cars stop
and wait.
He glares, they honk,
he takes his time, licks his ass
until he's goddamn good and ready to cross the street.

He strolls through the lawn
and shits on the cross.
After, he blocks the entrance to the church
and waits
for someone to open the door.

Once he slivers inside,
piss blasts out of his furry cock
and onto the pews.

They kick him out.
They kick him out again and again.
He's a reject of the greatest proportion
and doesn't care.

That's why
there will always be a bowl of cat food
on my front porch
for you,
my good friend.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Follow Her Dreams

She looked half
dead,
but healthy
and for the first time
in years,
skinny.

Her drastic diet
had worked.
Who knew
such suicidal practices
would lead
toward a better
physique?

At first,
I was concerned,
extremely,
and terrified
she would die.

My aunt
convinced me
otherwise.

She wears
a scarf now
everyday
even when
the sun's arms
burn the skin of
everyone.

She sweats,
doesn't mind,
she has to hide
the bruises,
but never
her newfound body.

New skirts,
shorts,
dresses,
and tights.

Who knew
this would work?

Every morning,
she places a noose
around her slender,
tender
neck
and hangs herself,
not leaving her feet,
just enough
till she passes out.

She has help.

She has her
daughter,
spot her,
untie her,
and put her
to rest...
for hours
she sleeps
and when
she wakes,
she can't eat.

Her throat
is swollen
and in excruciating pain,
therefore
food is of no
need
and she has no desire
to stuff her now
skinny face.

She takes
vitamins
and supplemental nutrients
with water
and this is all
she can hold
down
and all she cares to
swallow.

50 lbs
in two weeks
and the noose gains attention
from her impressionable
daughter.

The cycle continues...

The diet
is flawless
and is spreading
and to think
it all began in her
dreams.

You can be weightless
too
just follow
her lead.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

The Brazen Bull Inside Her

Her blood was boiling,
her flesh was boiling,
her soul was boiling.

The only release
she felt
was through her veins.

The only way
to stop the boiling
was by cutting her wrists
over and over again
with a dull knife.

The only way
to forget the searing pain
was by choking
on pills.

The only way
to be happy
was to die,
leave her kids,
her family,
her life
behind.

The only release
for her family
was to peel away
the layers of pain
from their lives.

They could not
let this happen.

They, too,
jumped in the burning agony,
not out of desperation,
but to relate,
to boil
with her
and find a way
to extinguish
the flames
that burns their home.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Public Defendaz Interview

The trial is over. The verdict is in. Based upon irrefutable evidence, We, the jury of Lynt Superior Court, find the defendant, Public Defendaz, guilty of all the following charges. Count 1 is arson. Taktical, Tha Oktapus, Royal, IyayI, and DJ Onebreeze, deliver burning razor-sharp and insightful lyrics, torching every block in the county from the sulfur filled gutters of Paso to the crouch reeking dance clubs of SLO. Sucka MCs beware. You may end up lost in the ashes. Count 2 is drug trafficking. PD constantly supply dope beats to all of the Hip Hop fiends on the Central Coast, keeping them hooked and strung out for life. They can never get enough. Count 3 is involuntary manslaughter. PD out rhyme, outwork, out hustle each and every up and coming hip hop group, causing the competition to run and hide and eventually die out under Morro Rock.
PD’s rap sheet goes on, extending the entire length of Highway 101. Lynt doesn’t have the print space available to list the amount of charges they are guilty of. Their potential is limitless, so instead we will let them speak for themselves.

Lynt: Introduce yourselves to all of the unfortunate who have been in a coma under Bishop’s Peak…
PD: We go by the name “Public Defendaz”…and we’re here to make music for the people.

L: Why the name Public Defendaz? How did it come about?
PD: Well we make our music for the people, to voice an opinion. So basically, we speak for the people through our music. Oktapus & Taktical actually came up with the name one night passn’ by the courthouse on the way downtown…

L: What does PD represent as a group? Is there a message PD is trying to get out to the masses?
PD: Pub Def represents Hip Hop plain and simple. We have multiple messages we portray through various songs, but we’d say there’s an underlying message to “be yourself, don’t be afraid, and be independent.”

L: How many albums have you released?
PD: We’ve released 4 albums so far and by the time you read this we should have released our 5th. “Speedy Trial Vol. 1”, “Tampered Evidence”, “Mixtape Premier”, and “California Connection”.

L: What can newcomers expect when they get deflowered at a PD show?
PD: A lot of energy, lyrical wordplay, and a hell of a good time. If you get a chance to see us perform live, don’t sleep on it.

L: What has been PD’s greatest achievement to date?
PD: Winning last years “New Times Hip Hop Achievement Award” was a great accolade. Also the fact that we’ve performed with so many artist we respect (Rakim, Dead Prez, Heiro, etc)…And of course, the love we get from our family and fans.

L: Is there any new albums the fiends can expect in the near future? What’s in store for 2011?
PD: Well by the time you read this “Speedy Trial Vol. 2” should be released. And we’re currently working on a new compilation as well as a new studio album for 2011...So keep your ears and eyes open!!!

For booking:
Cassidy Wright:
Publicdefendaz@gmail.com
805-215-4053
www.facebook.com/publicdefendaz
http://publicdefendaz.bandcamp.com
www.reverbnation.com/publicdefendaz