I could see it
in his eyes.
The forbidden pleasure.
I could smell it
on his penis.
The lotion of lust.
I could not tell you
what I was doing.
I do not
want to recall
the sickness
that spewed out
onto my hands
and into my mind
forever distorting
any promises
of having a normal
sex life.
Now,
they tell me
there is no wrong
or right
and I want to believe
them,
but it seems
impossible.
There must be some
exceptions?
Right?
It appears as though,
I still have
no clue
as to what I am doing.
I have no answers,
but one thing
I do know is,
this torch
will not be
passed on.
It will, however,
burn inside me.
It will burn me
in my grave.
It will burn me
until I see his eyes
again.
Only then
can I tell you
the true meaning
of a horrible
daydream.
I had no idea of this horrible daydream. Things seem so much clearer now that I have read your torch of burden. You have such a soft spot in my heart and I will always be here for anything you need. You're such a strong man to carry such a burden. Thanks for sharing your poem Raymond.
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